I want to starve myself.
I want to cut away all the fat with a knife.
I know no one else sees what I see.
I want to throw up my insecurities.
I want to rid myself of their toxicities.
I want to walk through a room and not feel anything but sexy.
I feel the need to slut myself up to be desired with this weight.
Does this mean I truly am fat?
I feel the need to be a slut in order to get attention, just like fat girls do.
I hide the lower half of my face in t shirts and hoodies so no one can see my double chin.
I want to hide the upper half of my face so now ones sees how the fat of my cheeks closes my eyes when I smile.
I just want to hide my entire being.
I want to be swallowed in blackness.
...I want to be skinny.
...I want to be your idea of perfection.
...I want to not be this pathetic, emo, son of a bitch writing about hating myself when there are much more productive things to be doing.
Man I really fucking suck sometimes.
